First off, I apologize for not posting in a such long time. I’m back now, though! 🙂
I’ve recently realized that there is something I need to work on, and that is:
I consider myself a fairly honest person. The part of honesty that I’m not very good at, though, is saying what I want to say.
I tend to always nod my head and agree with what someone is telling me, even if I disagree. I’ll laugh at jokes that I don’t find funny.
And I don’t consider myself a people pleaser. I tend to be very stubborn, and not listen to what others have to say. (Something I’m trying to work on!) But I often find myself so in tune with other’s thoughts and feelings, that I hate the thought of not responding to it in a positive way. I hate the thought of hurting someone’s else’s feelings by not laughing at their jokes or agreeing with them on a certain topic, or not responding enthusiastically to what they have to say.
But I want to be honest. I want to say what I want to say. If I disagree with someone and feel the need to say something about it, I want to be able to respectfully disagree and state what I think. I want to respond and interact with people in a natural way, not in a way that I feel they want me to be.
I really admire honest people, even those who can be bluntly honest. (Which I guess isn’t always a great thing all the time, though.)
And I don’t know what it is, because like I said, I’m not a people pleaser. Maybe I would rather just agree and not create conflict with people, to be better liked. Maybe I don’t want to be shot down for what I have to say, or rejected for it. Whatever it is, I want to work on it.
So can you relate? Do you have trouble being honest with people?